Remember my last whiney post, the one where I was complaining about stupid things going wrong? What I failed to mention was the real reason for this pervasive feeling was that I was out of work. After a lengthy, craptastic, year-long, soul-sucking project, our department was eliminated. Having never been through this experience before, I can tell you that it was more than a bit surreal. Fifteen minute meetings were scheduled for each of us back to back. I was first. And I knew. I just knew. Not that there is any great glory in being right about something like this, but most of my coworkers thought we were being told our next assignment and manager. In a way, we were. Next assignment: Job Search. Next manager: You.
I walked into a conference room with a woman I had met only once and saw the HR representative already sitting in the room. And so began the rehearsed speach, "As you know, we have converted all the systems...." In my head, I was shouting, "STOP TALKING, STOP TALKING, STOP TALKING."
You always think, "if only I had the time to do all of the projects I never have time to accomplish..." And then, I had all the time in the world. But I was paralyzed with fear. I drove Jim crazy asking, "Everything is going to be okay, right?" a million times. I burst into tears at the sight of the guy at Walmart with the "Homeless and Hungry" sign. "That's going to be ME!," I wailed. I would drop Jim off at work, point to various people and say, "Oh, but HE has a job. That's fair!"
After four months of interviews and disappointment, I started a new job last week. I'm still getting acclimated, but the people are really great and welcoming. So, as I come out of this unemployment fog, I thought I'd try to catch up with the three of you who still read my posts.
First, things I've learned:
- I enjoy mowing the lawn regardless of those who drive by and laugh at me.
- No matter now many hours I spend with my dogs, it's never enough.
- Shoveling mulch is not for the faint of heart.
- Four-Year-Olds don't care if you have a job.
- Buying furniture for the porch was the best decision made all Summer.
- Four months off goes by like the blink of an eye.
Looking forward to Fall and all of the cozy fun that comes with my favorite season. I hurriedly bought pumpkins and decorated the yard.
My favorite preschooler started soccer this Fall...
Hope you are all enjoying your weekend. Happy Fall!